Posted 31 July 2009 - 07:02 AM
Lord, Thanks for Mike's faithfulness and friendship. Thanks for the prayers of your people. Father, I don't know what to ask for right now. I know that the enemy is after me because I have been clinging to you so tightly and because I was being so deeply filled with your Holy Spirit.
Lord, C and I have been dialed in deep with you and seeing prayer answered in her life, her sister's life, and mine. So the enemy has come after us all with a vengance. There's been no specific report of satanic assault from C, but I know it is there as sure as I breathe, as quiet on her end seems to be consistently the result of trouble in her family and increased pressure in her life. How convenient for the evil one that quiet on her end pricks me right where I am weakest, my fears of abandonment and rejection. I hate him, Lord; he is such a coward and a jerk! Lord, you know what awfulness I have lived through since childhood. You know how hard I have worked to improve myself and grow. You know how far I have come and how much I have grown. Father, only a cowardly jerk like satan would seek to fill me with doubt and fear. I hate him, Lord, and I LOVE YOU! I know you will use what he means for evil and turn it into good. He loses every time!
Father, I know that I don't need this sisterhood. You are my family, Lord Jesus. You are my faithful companion. But I know that it has been so good for me to have a sister--someone who takes me "as is" and loves me. I know that C is your special daughter and gift to me. I know that I have been your gift to her as well--she has told me so often. These are beautiful words to hear, particularly when I have been so low. It doesn't surprise me, then, that the enemy is hunting down this sisterhood and looking for ways to weaken it. He's up to no good, Lord; I can feel it in my bones. Thank you, Father, for creating me with strong intuition and spiritual sensitivity. Thank you, for holding me so dear to you that I know where to turn and to whom to cling--YOU ARE THE ROCK! YOU ARE ENOUGH FOR ME!
Father, I refuse the enemy's efforts to make me feel like a bottomless pit of need and insecurity. I am determined to continue improving my life through you. I know you won't fail me or let me down. I trust you to come through. Please Lord, help me through this time of tension, fear, and doubt. Please send me assurances and help me to get to the next level of trust with you and with my precious sister, C. Father, I long to do your will and to do good in the world. I ache to be consistently strong, stable, and healthy in my body, mind, and spirit. Lord, I don't desire these things so that I won't need you. I desire them so that I can serve you and others better. You are my all in all, Lord.
Father, wherever my sweet sister is on her own continuum of growth and development in you, please work in her life dramatically. Show her, Lord, how to release herself and her fears to you. Show her that she can trust you even more than she does. Show her how to manage the intensity of dealing with her sister's trouble alongside her other responsibilities and commitments. Show her, Father, just how much you love her. Guide her, Lord, to the assurances that she needs--whatever they are. Continue, please Abba Father, building our precious sisterhood into a strong union and a living testimony of your goodness. Use us, Lord, not simply to help each other, but to help others for your Name's sake.
Lord, you gave me a clear vision for this sisterhood--for the concept of intentional sisterhood and what it can mean for your kingdom and the furtherance of your Name. Help me, then, Lord, to see this vision through to fulfillment. Help C to understand that her role in my life goes far beyond seeing me through a season of need. Give her an incredible awareness, Lord, that we are deep in the depths of kingdom work together, and that our story of sisterhood is one that you've created that it might be shared and modeled and taught to others. Help her to see way past ladies Bible studies and her ministry of praying with hurting sisters. Help her to see her history of helping other women less as the result of her soft spot for broken people, and more as a purposeful collection of experiences that have led her to this moment in time when she can intentionally document a plan of action to increase your kingdom. Show her how and why the sisterhood you are building between us can be learned by others.
Father, the world and the enemy present numerous distractions and problems that interfere with our ability to remain focused on you. I see this challenge in my life and in the lives of the people I love, including C. Help us, Lord, to step over and move through these challenges so that we can continue with the charge of taking your Name and the message of your goodness out into this hurting world.
Thank you, Lord, for what you are teaching me. Thank you, Lord, even for the pain and suffering. Thank you even for this season of upheaval, as I know that you are alive and working in my life to change and grow me for your good purposes and my benefit. Father, please bless me today, and fill me with the assurance that I am deeply loved by you. Do the same for our dear C. Give her wonderful times of quiet meditation wherever she is, and help her to hear and receive your directions for all things in her life. Open her to yourself in ways that she never imagined.
Lord, I am placing my life, my hopes, my fears, my needs, and my desires in your hands. Thank you for hearing my anxious cries. I look forward to your beautiful and blessed responses. These things I pray in the Name of Jesus. Amen.