Posted 09 June 2006 - 10:06 AM
Thank you for your prayers and love.
I am still unsure as to what to do. Carl and i are still in contact via text and we see each other on the road and wave, etc. There is no bad feeling there though. I told him i still miss his company and care for him and he feels the same. I really pray that HE WOULD COME TO THE LORD, there is something very special there, and i just feel that Carl is waiting, for what, i dont know, maybe it's not to be such a 'strong' christian and go back to him as he is - unsaved. Christian friends have even said to me, if i'd be happy with him, what would it matter TOO much that he isn't saved, as he has more chance of being saved if i WAS married to him?? He has said he would never stop me doing what i wanted to do re: my beleifs etc, but that i must stop trying to change him. I can see that he doesn't want to be pushed into anything, i used to fight against christianity being shoved down my throat. I really need to hear from God.
I also have dystonia that affects my neck, it is sooo painful, and my neck is stiff, it's not curable, and i feel a freak with it sometimes. I would appreciate prayer for that, as it's often so difficult to cope with work and day to day life, sometimes.
God Bless you, and thank you. Wendy.