Posted 26 October 2008 - 07:47 AM
After I posted last night, Eddie called me.... Only to tell me that he was doing badly in school, that he still didn't love me and that he thinks we should move on to the "next step". It's just unbelievable to me that a month ago today, we celebrated my birthday together, he sang to me with his guitar, he gave me beautiful cards saying how much he loved me, appreciated me, etc., and now this! He is only 5 months away from finishing nursing school, and we have both sacrificed a lot for this goal, and he is ready to let it all go! He's ready to throw away his marriage, his church, his career goals and everything in one fell swoop! I spoke to a friend of ours who talked to him yesterday, and he said that Eddie assured him that he was going to be seeking God and godly counsel, etc., but what he told me doesn't match that conversation! I am confused and scared. Everyone who knows us keeps telling me not to believe his words, since he isn't thinking clearly, but it's very hard to not believe the ugly words coming out of the dearest person on earth's mouth. He doesn't have a job, since he is a full time student, and I don't know how he thinks he will survive if he doesn't finish school. Please pray with me that he really will seek God and that he will go to church today. Pray that the Holy Spirit breaks down all the walls of anger and resentment and gets through to him, as only He can do. Pray that he really considers what he is doing, and opens his eyes to the truth. Pray that any lying tongues will be silenced in the name of Jesus and that his life will not be a failure, but a victory. I am believing for a miracle.