Posted 21 November 2005 - 12:29 PM
“God, I am drawn towards you,
For I heard that you love me, more than I do,
For I heard you are the greatest,
& the foremost, you are the nearest.
Everyday was shallow, hollow, & painful
Missing you, oh lord!
Come to me, come to me,
For I am the needy, the loving, the left one!”
“Being the poorest soul, of the universal content
Which you filled in me,
I could take a form nor be a being,
Unborn for millions of years,
The time is so vast that my little flesh is
Unable to recall and my small heart is unable
Hold the ….. Precious love you have been
Showering upon me, Oh lord!
The immeasurable blessing you showered upon
Me by keeping me your lap,
I love you, oh lord, thanks for everything;
I would say for billions of times
Till my breathe lasts & even after that …..
Today, I have decided to open before you all those feelings which I have been long waiting to share with you. You have created this universe, where you first gave Adam & Eve, Eden to live in, the world you’ve made has been continuing till now as generations have been multiplying in vast numbers. The beauty of your creation is completely unimaginable. I have just passed seventeen years, my parents, my siblings, my friends & foe were all decided by you.I am thankful to you for creating such place where I have been brought up with love & affection but that lasted for only ten years, since then I’ve been away from them in boarding school and it was then the bond between you and me started to strengthen. I had a pure soul that could understanding you and did not bother about distractions. I loved you deeply nor material comforts nor my parent’s love did pull me away from you but sadly today as I have grown up , the horizon of my mind has deepened so wide that the worldly things distract me now.
My mind is not pure now for I have known over million of things that are advancing with the world today. I remember you every second and want to be fully connected to you but the world has been so much poisoned that it is impossible to clean it off.The scientific knowledge compels me to believe of only the tangible.The whole world today is ….. believing in electricity, oxygen etc. which are not visible, unfortunately are not ready to believe the supreme benefactor of all these things—you.
. You try to teach me & my siblings the wisdom of love, affection and universal brotherhood --‘The unworldly and the very essential purpose of a man to come to earth’, I try to drink up those drops of wisdom but unfortunately the distractions to my mind --the anger, greed, pride, ego, the impure thinking keeps my mind in action. ‘As mind in action is in Bondage & without action is in liberation.’ . My mind always remains occupied with confusion, worry and desires.
This has become impossible for me to imagine a world where I can live peacefully. There is no place for the innocent mind to stay .The world is of show- buzz where money is worshipped as deify.
Daily when I see thousands of weak and homeless people lying down roadside with very less cloth to cover themselves…,while others drowned in oceans due to hurricanes like in Tsunami - children become orphans, women become widows, and thousands become homeless, tears roll out of my eyes.
Oh lord, was this world u made? There is so much sufferings in this world..
God, everyone says marriage is the true bondage where the two are bonded forever where they swear in front of you to live & respect each other for whole life but
‘It doesn’t take a lot of strength to
It takes a lot of strength to let go’
- J.C. Walt
But, the truth is there are reports of women being killed for dowry etc. Women, still in some parts of my country are treated as the sole of the foot. The condition is really worsening day by day. “Treacherous, lecherous, remorseless” men in this world, have made the lives of women miserable. The hungry monsters do not look for age and the innocence of girls; do not take much time to spoil their lives. O God, I feel bad living in this world now. I feel afraid to walk in solitude because there is a fear of being engulfed by the cruel monsters.
I always want place where all these sins are not committed & that’s your paradise....
. God, socially in India, there are more religious activities performed than anywhere in the world. There are some who try act as such holy men as if they were just your angles. They dress up as ‘prophets’. They mislead people by making them false promises & poor people in search of you fall prey of these people for the motive of gaining fame & name. Some people readily accept them as their lord because they believe in only ‘VISIBLE GODS’ & you are invisible so they worship them. They do not think that every mortal has to die one day and that their supreme creature is you. .
The concept of ‘visibility’ derives from advances in Science & Technology. Today the world has limited its horizon. . Your knowledge is so vast which cannot fit in our brain so it is obvious that the human mind cannot think of your miracles. ’What fools these mortals be’.
“The Humanity has to be replenished again; the millions weeping hearts have to be loved by you once again…” “Don’t be sad”
“I go to my father now so that the Holy Spirit can come to you. Then you will receive power to tell everyone about me in Jerusalem, in Judea, in Samaria, in the entire world!”
Do you remember lord this is what is said to your children? & so, its time for you to come & remove the darkness of ignorance .I’ve been running whole my life in search of you but I’m tired now & I still haven’t reached, please help me, MY LORD!
‘Test of love always ends badly’
So, I would just say that I love you in immeasurable quantities & beg in front of you to take me into your lap once again for now I am lost , lost into those millions of creatures from where I cannot return . There is no one to hold my hand & show me the right path..
I pray you,
Oh my dear father,
Bring enlightenment once again in everyone’s life so that---
‘There will be only love & peace in this world.
There is escape from all evils,
Where there is freedom of thought & there is truthfulness & happiness & this world becomes a heaven to live in!”
This will be true only when……..
Your foot touches the earth again! …. So, Today….
I am joining with your angels …..
(Oh God! You please come to lead us from untruth to truth,
Please lead us from darkness to light,
Please lead us from mortality to immortality.)
Yours loving daughter,