two days ago, my child went to be with You in Heaven. Hold my baby close, Father, and let this child know that though I never knew him and that though I could never hold him in my arms, I love him all the same.
I am sorry we never had a chance to meet on this earth, but I pray that one day I will be able to see him in heaven and finally tell him how much I would have loved to have him in my life. I am sorry that he came at such a time, when our family is in such a mess, that I could not even be at their side as mother and child went through this horrible operation. My heart aches for my unborn child and my precious wife and the grief is unbearable.
Abba, I plead with you, heal the rift in my family, that I may once more be able to go to my wife and comfort her in this time of loss. Restore her body as she recuperates in this time, take away all her pain and comfort her in her heart. Protect her from all negative emotions and influences in this time, remind her of Your love and Your wonderful redemption. Give her strength in her body and her heart as she rests, and lay your supernatural healing on her.
Jesus, forgive me. I have frivolously squandered away the family that you have given to me. I have not been a worthy son, husband nor father. Through these months, I have strived to love my wife like You loved the church, I have striven to work hard and provide for my family as best that I could. But still, there is guilt, pain and faithlessness in me for the things I have said and done. LORD, I am underserving, but give me peace in my heart and strength that I may continue to change and become a better person.
Merciful Saviour, show me the way where I can see no way, for I am lost and hurting and I do not see a redemption and restoration from where I am now. It seems as if I have walked too far away and made too many mistakes to have forgiveness from those around me. O GOD, heal my heart, You know it is broken in so many places because of so many things, and I do not know what to do. I confess my sins, and admit all my faults, only do not forsake me and deliver me from this nightmare.
I know that thoughts of suicide are not from you, LORD, keep me from this temptation and self-righteousness. Raise my spirit and give me revelation and comfort in Your word. Send guardian angels to watch my paths and give Godly counsel in this time. I claim upon Your word that you have heard my cries and seen my sorrows, deliver me from this place that I may see rest and an end to this tribulation.
Faithful GOD, lay your hand on my child, teach him Your ways and show him the wonders of heaven. Guide him and protect him in the place where there are no tears. Remind him, LORD, that he has an earthly father, who though unworthy, loves him and his mother very much. Let him know that above all else, he was conceived in love.
I pray all this in Jesus most precious name,