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#89 "You are Beautiful"

Posted by Mike4Hope, 26 July 2010 · 1,408 views

Dear Hope Summers:
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Dear Hope:
I just returned from the weekend at Ignite Chicago. I have been "muted" on here for almost a month, but today God has prompted me with much to share:

Today's devotion from Proverbs 31.org:

Monday, July 26, 2010
The Waiting
Wendy Pope

"Wait for the LORD; be strong and take heart and wait for the LORD." Psalm 27:14 (NLT)

Waiting: a virtue I aspire to obtain but often fail to achieve. How about you?

In our hurry up, need it, gotta-have-it-now culture, we have been brain-washed into thinking there is something wrong with waiting and we shouldn't have to do it. Within seconds we can know the weather in southern Mongolia, order a cute blouse from a trendy store, or Skype a conversation with a friend on the opposite side of the country. We can instant message a friend or send a tweet to thousands in the blink of an eye; no wonder we believe waiting is hard to do.

The author of today's key verse was no stranger to waiting and knew full well of its difficulties. Out of nowhere, the prophet Samuel showed up at his home to anoint the next king of Israel who was to be chosen from his family. Only one of Jesse's sons would be anointed as God's chosen king for His beloved Israel. The son chosen was David. Scripture tell us the Spirit of God rushed over David and was with him the remainder of his days (1 Samuel 16:13, ESV). With such an anointing one would expect David to run to take his seat on the throne, but the only running David did was back to the pasture to do his job. Thus his wait began.

In the wait, God prepared David for his seat on the throne. The only vocation David knew was shepherding. He did not know the ends and outs of kingly protocol or the rules of royal deity. David did not have the support of the people or armies to defend him as king. He was only a lowly shepherd boy. Instead of taking the position he was promised David waited for God to move him from the pasture to the palace. In the wait, God made David ready for the move.
David learned many lessons about waiting. By examining and applying these truths we can find hope in the difficulty of waiting and determine that waiting in the present is beneficial to our future.

( 1. Even though we are anointed and appointed we may still have to wait. David waited fifteen years to be king of Judah and even longer to be king of all Israel.
2. God's ways are not our ways; His thoughts are not our thoughts. After being anointed and appointed David was called to serve Saul, the king who was sitting on "his" throne.
3. God doesn't waste time; He holds it in His hands. He redeems it by using our experiences to prosper us in each season of life.
4. If we allow it, our waiting will bring us to an intimate knowledge of the Savior that we would not other wise have. Most of David's beautiful and poetic psalms were written while in caves, caverns, and the wilderness, waiting on God.
5. God does not ignore the cries of His children. David cried out, and at times begged God for help, invention, and defense. God never let David down. He did eventually take the throne, didn't he?
6. Our waiting has a purpose for someone other that ourselves. It is not all about us. Just think of how rich our lives are today because of the wait David endured. We have the comfort, compassion, hope, and healing of his amazing poetry.

What awesome instructions David gives for waiting! Waiting is less difficult and the future is brighter when we let God to do His work in our waiting season. When we let our guard and defenses down He proves Himself faithful to bring His plans for our lives to fullness.

Dear Lord, help me wait. Help me wait well. I want to be still and allow You to bring Your plan in my life to its fullness. I can't do this without You. In Jesus' Name, Amen. )

Power Verses:
Psalm 27:4, "One thing I ask of the LORD, this is what I seek: that I may dwell in the house of the LORD all the days of my life, to gaze upon the beauty of the LORD and to seek him in his temple" (NIV)

Isaiah 40:31, "But those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint." (NIV)
Lamentations 3:24, "I say to myself, 'The LORD is my portion; therefore I will wait for him."" (NIV)
(My Bible says, "My soul claims the Lord as my inheritance; therefore I will hope in Him.")

Ignite Chicago:
1) I had invited you to join me.
2) I was hoping for the "hollywood version" of our reconciliation with you possibly showing up on stage or maybe an announcement to claim you in "lost and found".
3) I left the festival midday Saturday confused and most disenchanted. (hurting)
I went to my motel room and God had some things to make perfectly clear with me:
- I was to remain obedient ........... not like the Israelites that complained and forgot God's provision and promises. (keep going nomatterwhat)
- As I know that I am not to harden my heart, I was complaining of the natural 'atrophy' a cut off love can suffer. In no uncertain terms, God said that was His work to do and I was to trust Him for the trust and intimacy I was fretting over ever returning.
- In addition, it was not about just 'Mike & Hope'; there is much more involved here (likely a Hope4Marriage ministry geared to Christain marriages God's way. The very things I was concerning myself about will be the very testimony (and victory) of the ministry. (gulp)

I did not know if I would have any God experiences at Ignite or not. I had two very big ones:
1) I am always very aware of songs that 'speak to me' that might be for you as well.
1st yr was Voice of Truth (Casting Crowns); 2nd year was Stay Strong (Newsboys); last year was Born Again (Third Day) and this year it could have been several:
"Daylight" (is coming!) (Remedy Drive) (no, I'll take the recorded version ..... which gives me big hope!)
"Born Again" by Third Day (no) (actually Cry out to Jesus touched me more)
"Walk on the Water" (Britt Nicole) (no) ( Jeremy Camp "There will be a Day" encouraged me a great deal more)
There were no such song or words right into the closing act of MercyMe......................

2) I was rocking out (jumping) to David Crowder and my cell phone escaped my very deep pockets. I realized it when I went to my vehicle right afterwards to go get something to eat. Yes, it is my lifeline to you and many other things, but I gave it's prospective return to God. It can be replaced (same # or not) and "if God wants Hope to find me He will return my phone to me or direct Hope accordingly."
I returned during Toby Mac to learn that no one knew where "lost and found" was; there had been a cell phone found, but no one knew where it was. I had lost my phone amongst 10,000 people, I was not going to let it ruin my day or miss 'being up front' for the closing act MercyMe.
I must say that none of MercyMe songs are elite-special to me. I thought there were no more 'impact' songs left until ...... if lights could speak, they certainly said "this one is for Hope" ......... I knew immediately by the stage lights (colors of you) that I was to share the next song with you (yes, before they played it!). I thought, this is crazy, I have never even heard this song before. (it did not matter to God, He wanted obedience, not discretion) The song was/is (You are) "Beautiful" and I also did not know there was a youtube of it, but of course God did:
I can only assume there are lyrics and images here that God had in mind for you Hope .... the silhouette at 3:10 minutes is definately you! wub.gif

Know this dear Hope: You have always been beautiful in His eyes ........ and mine ....... He even moved bones in your face for the one He chose for you.

I was tapped on the back during MercyMe by the guy who found my cell phone. Out of 10,000 people he found me (Yes, how? is a great question). I picked up my phone on my way out of the stadium. Two hours later driving home around 2am, I heard BRAVE and thought, "Yes, she can call now .... I have my phone .... praise be to our God of provision, promises and hope!!!

I was a little concerned about the last slide that "You are wonderfully and fearfully made (in His image) ......" but I believe you are to go to Psalms 139 to read for yourself and draw your own conclusion ........ besides ........ I was brought into your life to help you stomp on your fears (amongst many other reasons) so 'fearfully' now means "in Him". wink.gif

When God prompts me to post to you here, He gives me a blast of content that He wants shared. In addition to the P31 post and Ignite stories, this is my devotional for this day from:

"Streams in the Desert" July 26

By faith we eagerly await through the Spirit the righteousness for which we hope (Galatians 5:5)

There are times when every thing looks very dark to me -- so dark that I have to wait before I have hope. Waiting with hope is very difficult, but true patience is expressed when we must even wait for hope. When we see no hint of success yet refuse to despair, when we see nothing but the darkness of night through our window yet keep the shutters open because stars may appear in the sky, and when we have an empty place in our heart yet will not let it be filled with anything less than God's best -- that is the greatest patience in the universe. It is in the story of Job in the midst of the storm, Abraham on the road to Moriah, Moses in the desert of Midian, and the Son of Man in the Garden of Gethsemane. And there is no patience as strong as that which endures because we see "him who is invisible" (Heb. 11:27) It is the kind of patience that waits for hope.
Dear Lord, You have made waiting beautiful and patience divine. You have taught us that Your will should be accepted simply because it is Your will. You have revealed to us that a person may see nothing but sorrow in his cup yet still be willing to drink it because of a conviction that Your eyes see further than his own.
Father, give me Your divine power -- the power of Gethsemane. Give me the strength to wait for hope -- to look through the window when there are no stars. Even when my joy is gone, give me strength to stand victoriously in the darkest night and say, "To my heavenly Father, the sun still shines."
I will have reached the point of greatest strength once I have learned to wait for hope.

Since the day I met you in Madison and said in my first words from my eyes into yours, "Oh, you are so pretty" I have been telling you that you are beautiful. It amazes me that God would bring this song to you (from me and He) right now. A song I had never heard and agreed to share before I even heard it just because I felt it was God's will. I believe it has messages for you from both God and me. For me, you are still beautiful. We can get past the whatever. You are forgiven and much loved as I obediently wait for you Hope.

Your Michael

PS: You are treasured, you are sacred, you are His ......... (and mine ;o) ......... pssssssssssssssst ..........You are beautiful !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
My "Jesus arms" are extended to you ............. just come as you are. ..... "You & Me" were chosen for so much more than all of this....

Praying for: <>< Truth ><> Revelation <>< Forthcoming ><> Communication <>< Forgiveness ><> Healing <>< Reconciliation ><> Restofourlifesong to honor You.

Birthday post script:

Dear Hope:

I allowed you to break my heart again yesterday. (I don't think your nature would allow you to point blank kill me, but know that this slow bleed to death is even more cruel ... and I know that the woman I married is way better than that)

I had prayed all day that you would have a heaviness on your heart, that you would have trouble breathing until you relieved it in obedience to God's call for us. (I am most concerned now what it is going to take to bring you to your knees before God) (I am praying that your poor influences and poor choices are taken away from you and replaced with truth and clarity of God's will for your life)

You should not pride yourself into taking credit for my faithful pining. I question God all the time whether you are worth all this, but He says "it is". The "it" is His purpose and plan for us before we even met. Yes, He knew this was going to happen, He knew I loved Him enough to wait for someone that dissed, rejected and abandoned me like all the others and yet like no other (you were supposed to be the one who would NEVER do that to me as my Proverbs 31 last love). Therewillbeaday that all these wrongs are made into rights. And (as I wrote in my last blog to you about Ignite Chicago) our Grand Canyon sized obstacle of trust and intimacy will be bridged by His grace when the time comes. I am to just keep my Jesus arms open to you and trust Him for the rest.

I had a most painful day yesterday. I am glad it's over.
But God gave me two consolations last night:

1) He put it on my heart that my pain of the day was evidence that I was being obedient to His words to keep loving you, not to harden my heart and to expect your (spoken thus) inevitable return. Being that my pain was evidence that I was still being faithful to His spoken words over our marriage and call.

2) You have not called for months. I placed my phone on my Bible last night and asked God (as I have many times) to make my phone ring. (I have a unique ring for restricted calls). As the night was winding down, but I was still believing that any second that you could call ........... that special ring tone finally rang. It was not you, but a wrong number.
(Yes, this person actually spoke to me!)
This has not happened once in the 4 years of my wait. What are the odds? God gave me my ring, as a loving gesture that you were not going to call, yet He still has "You & Me" and that therewillbeaday.

I am most concerned for you. (as a person, as a child of God, as my previous best friend, as my previous wife, and as my future best friend and wife wub.gif ) You undoubtedly are confused and listening to the wrong voices. I am to assure you that you are worth it, you are forgiven (nomatterwhat) and that when you finally trust Him enough to dowhateverittakes nomatterwhat to be obedient, that your faith will rise over your fears and you will be blessed better than you could ever have imagined.

Your Michael

After yesterday, I have a better understanding of why God would chose the song (You are) "Beautiful" for me to bring to you.
1) You (if you have not already) will likely be deluged by satan that you are not worthy and "it can never work". (a lie from the pit of hell) ........ that is why I keep saying "stand up Hope" ....... against the lies and for the truth.

2) You are definately "made for so much more than all of this" (my blessings are tied to us ........ so please consider the "we" in all of this)

3) Therewillbeaday and the rest of our lives when we will be all that the other ever dreamed of having as a partner. We will be silly in love and thrilled and amazed in doing God's call for us. I will look into your eyes again one day, full of love and adoration and tell you from my truthful heart that you are beautiful. Just watch..........
I am SO comforted that you have real memories of "us". How I loved you (adored you, and loved Mama', Jacque and Brad as my own) and respected you and listened to you and was thrilled to be with you in all we did. How my touches and more could never be faked and in the end, all these things will be the evidence of my love that will never compare.
I "believe" that you have been hanging around here for months in turmoil and indecision. It is His all-knowing discernment that draws you here. You owe it to God, myself and yourself to make sure without a doubt that your decision is sound and in His will.
If you think you cannot resist me if we meet and talk, there is likely a reason for that. (back to "she has always loved you") God would not bring us together (and He did) and then have you give me up ....... He does not make mistakes ......... only we humans do.
I pray for His voice to get much louder for you my Hope. ........ I still love you with all my heart...........
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..... a continuation of (You are) "Beautiful" .......... we were called for so much more than all of this ........


TODAY'S SCRIPTURE (August 4, 2010)
"For He chose us in Him before the creation of the world…"
(Ephesians 1:4, NIV).

TODAY'S WORD from Joel and Victoria
God chose you before the foundations of the earth. Before the worlds were ever formed, He knew you. And, He didn't create you to be average. He didn't create you to barely get by. No, He created you to excel! Not only has He chosen you, but He has equipped you with everything you need to live His abundant life. He has deposited seeds of greatness inside every person. But in order to tap into those seeds of greatness, you have to believe this and act on it.

Too many people today are going around with low self-esteem, feeling inferior like they don't have what it takes. They are living a lie. And as long as we have a poor self-image, we're not going to experience God's best. In order to be all that God has called us to be, we have to see ourselves as chosen, valuable and victorious.

Today, meditate on this truth. Let it sink down deep into your heart. Let it build confidence and security in you. As you understand your value, you'll rise up higher and higher into the life of victory He has prepared for you!

Father God, thank You for choosing me. Thank You for equipping me. Help me to see myself the way You see me. Show me Your ways that I may walk with You in confidence and trust all the days of my life. In Jesus' Name. Amen.

Remember my Proverbs 31 fleece to find you?
Remember my "4Hope" call in the midst of desperation at the lowest point of my life in San Diego?
Remember "The Dream Giver"?
Remember the feather you found too.
Remember the 72 confirmations of Mike & Hope?

Well, God confirmed us way before that. He chose us before we were born to come together when we did. (remember the magic of it all) He chose us to be married, to be called to 4Hope, to this very difficult time for both of us, and chose us for our redemption, reconciliation and resurrection of our marriage and chose us for His purpose of our testimony of a Christain marriage the way God intended.

I was chosen to do 4Hope.
You were chosen to be my helpmate in this work.
We were chosen to do 4Hope together as one in the flesh in marriage and one in the spirit in Him.
"You & Me" / Mike and Hope were chosen thus destined.

I know what I have been told Hope.
I know I was given the proof, permission and peace to divorce Linda.
I know that God told me in San Diego in April of 2004 to give Colleen to Him. (He never gave her back)
I know that you are my chosen and destined wife. I know great wrong was done. I know satan thinks he won. But I know (from direct words from God) that this is not over, that you will return and we will do what we have been chosen to do.
I can't wait! I know He will heal us. I know we will have our magic back. I know that we will eventually be financially blessed. I know that this is all somehow going to affect/involve our children and I can't wait to see how. Our future is bright and only a first step away. I am praying, PW is praying for that day that you step out of the boat.
My arms are wide open.

Your Michael

"It" will be the better than we could ever imagine .... the things we have been waiting for and it "feels" are lost forever .... and satan believes he has successfully aborted. (but has not, just like Jesus' death and resurrection)
And Yes! Through all of this, when you have stomped on my rejection/abandonment triggers, I still love you with all my being. (definately a miracle)
Surely we can find a way to talk about how I may have stomped on your fear/abuse triggers when all I wanted to do was love you and provide, protect and gently lead (as I am wired and believe) and shared in my last letter to you right before you asked me to leave. (I am willing to learn and respect where you are coming from, I need the same from you ....... that's what two P31's would do wink.gif )
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I just got back from walking. The very first song on my I-pod was "If You Could See What I See" by Geoff Moore. I had not heard it for seemingly years. I forget I even had it. But God put it right up front so I would pay attention. (He is not going to let go you know!)

It made me think of: If we could see what He sees. ..... We would want what He wants .... (for you, there would be no fear ;o)

I remember that I wanted to be married to the bio mother of my children til death do us part .............. but God had plans of a testimony and ministry for Christian marriages.

I remember that I wanted to be a big shot at Caterpillar and retire with a fat pension and live happily (comfy) ever after ........ but no, God put the "man of God' in a place he could not stay ...... where he was destined to leave and seek what God wanted.

I would never have found you if I had not let God choose my wife (P31).

I dawned on me today as I was listening to the lyrics to the song that you gave me your hand and heart in marriage that (You are) "Beautiful" is just a more situation-appropriate version of the same message to you. (You are chosen to be so much more than all of this) If you could see what He sees, you would never have asked me to leave, you would never have divorced me, you would run to me as fast as you could right now so we could get to the future He has for us. I am praying that "Beautiful" gets on the radio (would love to see your face the day you are driving and it comes on the radio .......... lol!)

God put this song on my heart for our wedding. Just as "Beautiful" speaks to you from both of us; I believe it to be the same for "If You Could See What I See":
(it does not "feel" like you are worthy of this anymore, but I must trust in what He sees in you for me)

If You Could See What I See by Geoff Moore

All of my life
I have dreamed
that somehow love would find me
now I can't believe you're standing here

If beauty is all
in the eye
of the beholder then I
wish you could see
the love for you that lives in me

And you would know you have my heart
If you could see what I see
that a treasure is what you are
if you could see what I see
Created to be
the only one for me
If you could see what I see

I know there are days
when you feel
so much less than ideal
wondering what I see in you

It's all of the light
and the grace
your belief in me drives me to say
that I promise you
a faithful love, forever true


if you could see...
then you'd understand
why i fall down to my knees
and I pray my love
will be worthy of
the One who gave His life
so our love could be

if you could see
what i see(x2)

Your created to be
The perfect one for me
If you could see
What I see

if beauty is all
in the eye
of the beholder then I
am beholding...
true beauty
............ and we were meant for so much more than all of this ..... I am good with baby steps ........ but there needs to be a first one. wub.gif
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Good Morning Hope!

I wanted to comment to you Saturday night after receiving a 4Hope revelation, but was muted.
I wanted to comment to you Sunday after your call during church, but was muted.
(yes, my phone is left in the car)
I really want to talk to you everyday, if only to say I LOVE YOU!!!!, but I must stay obedient.
So here is what I come to say today:

I would like to direct you to (Heather's) "5402 Wilson" post #880 in CAPW. (I do not know her other than a mom and wife from Missouri that The Holy Spirit has boldly brought to be a prayer warrior for "us")
This is a big WOW! (for God to tell her to gather others and pray for us at a specific time)
I am going to be at a Francesca Battistelli outdoor concert that starts at exactly 5pm CST. I will be praying for us ......... I ask that you do the same. Please be somewhere quiet and receptive to what God may have for you during this time.

Still praying for you to be personally visited by God's bold truth ...... and for a messenger and mentor that will be filled with God's wisdom and counsel for you ..... that will help you reconnect with me.

All my love forever,
Your Michael

PS: I received but missed your call tonight ......... please keep coming Hope! wink.gif ....... I heard BRAVE yesterday ........... HUGS!!! wub.gif
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Your love for your wife is really wonderful , pure and Satan just cannot do anything to lessen it.
Keep up the spirit ,continue in GOD's work and HE will answer you very sooooooooon.

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Something you need to be reminded of: (in the bold font of our wedding rings ......)


Remember the song I dedicated to you at our wedding:

"If You Could See What I See" (see lyrics above) - It talked about what I see in you and what I cherish. (Godsend)

It was about beauty on the inside - what I fell in love with.

When you return to Jesus, you will return to me. (why I keep telling you to get up (BRAVE) and go to the cross (was there last night praying you through)


The P31 woman is clothed in dignity ............ outward appearances fade dear Hope.

I see the changes in you, but the only one that would wait for you still sees beauty. (you will be amazed what all God has revealed to me)

Just come......



Your Michael



PS: I offered you Ephesians 5:25 for your Proverbs 31: 11&12 ..... thats still the deal.

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Odd: I heard  "Beautiful" at the gym today and God impressed upon me how it fits you so ........

 Listen to it intently Hope,  for it was written to speak to you.

I see increased activity on here. (something is stirring)

I have been awaken 3 straight mornings to 3:38am prayer for us.

I received my first "restricted" phone call in years on June 4th at 12:42am

If it is you dear Hope, I pray that you keep coming.

I'm about to invite you to Sonshine Festival in July, watch for my post in CAPW.


Love you,

Your Michael

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